There was a point in my life where I was so depressed that I thought my life had already reached its climax, and that there was nothing left for me. I felt I had no future. This was after I got suspended from BYU-Idaho for academic failure due to the fact that I was spiraling into depression. That, of course, compounded my problem.
Thanks to the help of my church, however, I was able to start living again in very minor ways. Gradually, I felt ready to attempt school and start my degree from scratch at UIS.
My second semester as an English major there, I had Dr. Lewis as my professor. On the first essay I turned in, Dr. Lewis wrote something at the bottom of the page that had a strong emotional affect on me. He wrote, "With gifts like these you have much before you."
The concept of having ANYTHING ahead of me entered my mind like some strange and foreign idea. I could not understand it. It didn't make sense, because my future had been erased. It had died. I was going through the motions of life, but I knew I had nothing to look forward to. All of the sudden, as I looked at that statement, it was as if my future had been resurrected.
Because of this teacher's encouragement to me through the years I was able to have the drive to keep going day after day in spite of difficulties.
Thank you Dr. Lewis!
“Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards.”
― Søren Kierkegaard
Namaste
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